Friday, February 8, 2008
I need a suckage meter.
I am so frustrated right now. You see, there is this teacher I have that I truly believe does not care for me. I have no proof of this other than a general negative vibe I've picked up from him. I didn't care at first but now I do care because I have come to value his opinion as a designer. That being said, he doesn't seem to care for any of my work either. Remember the Cabaret poster from yesterday's post? Well, I was really proud of it and my class and my other teacher all gave me positive feedback overall but today, when I asked him what he thought of it, he was like, "meh, it's okay." Now, I know that I live in a bubbling cesspool of low self esteem mixed with zero self-confidence, so this MAY be more in my head than not, but I know that it's at least partially true. I made him come to the hall today and pick out EXACTLY what is was that he did not like about the poster. He pointed out some general stuff like spacing and sizing, stuff that is mostly just tweaking, but he questioned a larger element that I had in it. I explained why it was there (my GD teacher suggested it) and what it was supposed to symbolize but he wasn't sold. I feel like I'm retarded. I feel like I'm too old to do this crap and that I'm not going to be able to get a good job because my work isn't good enough. I don't want to just be a graphic designer, I want to be a GOOD graphic designer but if I can't trust my own self in regards to the level of suckage a project has, what am I to do? Maybe I should just go back to the cube farm where being creative is not required nor encouraged.