So, I want to talk a little bit about why I'm mad at my hair. Yeah, my hair and you wanna know why? Because I've spent the last few weeks contemplating my next hair move and I finally called yesterday to make an appointment and then today, what happens? My hair looks nice. It's shiny and not effected by the weather and generally flattering, which are all things that DON'T happen. My hair and I know each other well and we've had a very storied past. VERY STORIED. I don't tend to keep the same hair style or color for a very long time. Since my first perm in 5th grade (thanks, Jan), I've been coloring, cutting, growing, curling, straightening and whatever else I can think to do to my hair. I've been every shade of red, black, blonde and purple (don't ask), highlighted, low lighted, pixied, shagged (ZING!) and many more in between. However, since last year, I decided to grow it all out and try to have long hair like a sensible person. My hair does not like to be long. It's thin, frizzy and gets stringy at the drop of a hat and I am usually irritated with it (see Hawaii story) but I thought if I grew it out, it would be easier to manage. So I did and it's longer than it's been since about 2nd grade and that's all fine and good, but I'm bored with it. I need a change. I NEED it. So, I decided to get some highlights or perhaps revisit by inner redhead and chop off a good 6 inches so I made the call and all was well. WAS WELL. Today, my grown out dye job looks fresh and my bangs are laying perfectly and there is no sign of the stringy mess I woke up with. It's like it heard me call and was all "OHNOYOUDI'NT" and now it's all mad and toying with me. My hair is a jerk like that. Anyway, my point, if there is one in all this mess, is that now I don't know what to do. If I cancel, tomorrow my hair will turn back to shit and I'll be PISSED because my hairdresser is good and hard to get into and my appointment will be gone but if I don't, this good hair may continue just long enough to lull me into complacency and then IT'S OVER. It's nice, but it's just not what I want right now. It's like when you eat a really good dinner and there's some left and your pants are about to declare war on you if you don't stop eating but the food is so good so you feel compelled to keep eating just because you think you should so you do but then you look down at your gut hanging over and you're like "GAH! JUST STOP ALREADY." That's what it's like.
Anyways, this was in my brain and I had to get it out. I have issues.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Pancakes make me happy. HURRAH!
Pisces Wednesday, 28 January 2009
'If you are happy and you know it, clap your hands.' So goes the old song. But what if you are unhappy? Then clap them even louder. Find something, no matter how small, that you can genuinely and sincerely applaud. Summon appreciation and enthusiasm. From the depths of your being. Be as happy as you can be and you will soon discover that you are happier than you knew you were. Once you know that, though, you will be happy and you will know that you are happy - then you will be fully entitled to clap your hands.
What is this crap? Isn't the notion of being happy all relative and society's need to define it ridiculous? Isn't forcing everyone to be happy all the time counterproductive because when we aren't happy, we feel like failures which leads to further unhappiness? Haha....suck it happy.
So, we got about 35 feet of snow yesterday. Nah, but if you listened to the news people, that's how much we were going to get so EVERYONE FREAK OUT NOW. It's really pretty, and I can say that as someone who now works from home and who doesn't have to go out in it. It is hard to be cooped up here all day however. Max gets antsy when we're home too much and there could be a meltdown at any time. Monday was terrible and he was the crabbiest baby that ever lived. He (we) had been up since 10:30pm SUNDAY NIGHT, yes I said Sunday night, he refused to take anything resembling a nap and he also decided to say SCREW YOU FORMULA and refused to drink it. In fact, he would take the bottle and throw it down repeatedly so that it leaked all over my floor. I hope formula doesn't hurt dogs. Anyway, because of the impending blizzard, I also had to get to the grocery store because that's just what you do in that situation and he spent the whole time screaming and yelling because he didn't want to ride in the cart. I had to abandon my list and I just ran through throwing crap in my cart. I have no idea what I bought. We made it home and just as I was about to go clinically insane, Jeff came home so that I was free to go sit down, have a glass of wine and unwind. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. No, that's not what happened. I did have a glass of wine but I gulped it down as I stood unloading the dishwasher while also making dinner. Then I ate, did some work, folded laundry, gave the kid a bath, convinced him that if he didn't do to bed his mommy would be in the loony bin and then I was out before I was even able to finish watching Rock of Love Bus. How will I know if she ever got the cheeseburger?
Anyway, yesterday was MUCH better and he was super cute and only fussed the normal amount and he took TWO NAPS (not by his choice), he also started to take his bottle again and he STOOD ON HIS OWN for about 4 seconds. I'm hoping to have him walking by the end of the week and doing complex math by next week. Then he can balance my checkbook. Good boy.
'If you are happy and you know it, clap your hands.' So goes the old song. But what if you are unhappy? Then clap them even louder. Find something, no matter how small, that you can genuinely and sincerely applaud. Summon appreciation and enthusiasm. From the depths of your being. Be as happy as you can be and you will soon discover that you are happier than you knew you were. Once you know that, though, you will be happy and you will know that you are happy - then you will be fully entitled to clap your hands.
What is this crap? Isn't the notion of being happy all relative and society's need to define it ridiculous? Isn't forcing everyone to be happy all the time counterproductive because when we aren't happy, we feel like failures which leads to further unhappiness? Haha....suck it happy.
So, we got about 35 feet of snow yesterday. Nah, but if you listened to the news people, that's how much we were going to get so EVERYONE FREAK OUT NOW. It's really pretty, and I can say that as someone who now works from home and who doesn't have to go out in it. It is hard to be cooped up here all day however. Max gets antsy when we're home too much and there could be a meltdown at any time. Monday was terrible and he was the crabbiest baby that ever lived. He (we) had been up since 10:30pm SUNDAY NIGHT, yes I said Sunday night, he refused to take anything resembling a nap and he also decided to say SCREW YOU FORMULA and refused to drink it. In fact, he would take the bottle and throw it down repeatedly so that it leaked all over my floor. I hope formula doesn't hurt dogs. Anyway, because of the impending blizzard, I also had to get to the grocery store because that's just what you do in that situation and he spent the whole time screaming and yelling because he didn't want to ride in the cart. I had to abandon my list and I just ran through throwing crap in my cart. I have no idea what I bought. We made it home and just as I was about to go clinically insane, Jeff came home so that I was free to go sit down, have a glass of wine and unwind. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. No, that's not what happened. I did have a glass of wine but I gulped it down as I stood unloading the dishwasher while also making dinner. Then I ate, did some work, folded laundry, gave the kid a bath, convinced him that if he didn't do to bed his mommy would be in the loony bin and then I was out before I was even able to finish watching Rock of Love Bus. How will I know if she ever got the cheeseburger?
Anyway, yesterday was MUCH better and he was super cute and only fussed the normal amount and he took TWO NAPS (not by his choice), he also started to take his bottle again and he STOOD ON HIS OWN for about 4 seconds. I'm hoping to have him walking by the end of the week and doing complex math by next week. Then he can balance my checkbook. Good boy.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Feast your eyes on the cute.
So, I haven't posted pictures of the kid lately so here you go.
This cracks me UP! He looks like he's poop-smiling.
This is my favorite OF ALL TIME. He could not be any cuter if he tried.
No, I'm not cutting his bangs so don't bother asking.
Aww.....this rivals the other picture for cutest. He was in mid-splash.
Okay, you KNEW the mohawk was coming at some point. He's getting the real thing soon because that's just how he rolls, dig?
This has trouble written all over it.
He's giving me a kiss. With tongue.
Yeah, this isn't him but it's his new rug. It's super cute, no?
This cracks me UP! He looks like he's poop-smiling.
This is my favorite OF ALL TIME. He could not be any cuter if he tried.
No, I'm not cutting his bangs so don't bother asking.
Aww.....this rivals the other picture for cutest. He was in mid-splash.
Okay, you KNEW the mohawk was coming at some point. He's getting the real thing soon because that's just how he rolls, dig?
This has trouble written all over it.
He's giving me a kiss. With tongue.
Yeah, this isn't him but it's his new rug. It's super cute, no?Friday, January 23, 2009
Lost Recap
So, for those of you who are new to the site, we here at Kimchi Central like to do a little thing we call Lost Recap, where we do things like recap the latest episode of Lost. I know the title is confusing but try to follow. If you don't watch Lost, you might want to entertain yourself by revisiting one of our classic posts such as "Get down with the sickness" or "Happy New Year 5 Days Late." Or you could decide that this recap is so riveting that you now MUST watch this show in which case I bid you welcome and good luck. It's been a long Lost drought and I spent most of the drought praying to the 4-toed statue that this season wouldn't suck. There is a lot to get through here so you might want to grab a snack. Let's roll..........
-So we begin back with the Dharma Initiative and creepy Dr.Marvin Candle, star of the illustrious Dharma station films. He seems like a real dick. We see his "normal" family, wife and kid, and know he lived on the compound during the birth of the initiative. Is he just the video dude or something more? Anyway, he gets interrupted during filming to come and check out some craziness encountered while building the Orchid station, which we now know holds the most power due to an unlimited supply of some kind of magic stuff that is within the rock. The construction dudes want to keep drilling but he says NO, stop because this shit will MESS YOU UP FOR REAL. They show a sonar of the rock wall and maybe I'm crazy, but it sure looked like the Statue of Liberty's head was in that wall. Hmm. All I know is if they find a talking ape riding a horse, I'm gonna be pissed. Anyway, the good doctor starts to leave and who does he bump into working down in the Orchid, why it's our good friend Faraday! WHA?
-Back to the future, which brings us to Unshaven Jack and Ben at the funeral home. Ben has convinced Unshaven Jack that the reason their lives have turned to crap is because they left the island, which wasn't supposed to happen. Since Unshaven's life IS a pile of crap, he agrees to gather the rest of the 6 and ride Ben's magical unicorn back to the island. Nah, but how the hell ARE they going to get back since Ben left through the mysterious light flash? Amtrak? Ben also tells Unshaven that they ALL have to go back, including zombie John Locke/Jeremy Bentham. Load him up! They go to a seedy motel, Jack shaves off his ZZ Top beard and they make their plan.
-Now it's 3 years earlier and we get to see what happened to the people left back when the island disappeared, which we know from the video in the finale, really didn't disappear, it time traveled. The light and sound happen like before and when it's over, we see Locke in the jungle alone, where he had just been with Richard and the others. And it's raining. We also see our pals on the beach, who have now realized that the flash took away their campsite and all their stuff. Sawyer is confused, as usual and he and Juliet try to figure out what's happening, including why the freighter is suddenly gone. Faraday returns on the zodiac, since there is no longer a freighter out in the water, and he tells them that the camp hasn't disappeared, it just hasn't been built yet. Oh sure, that's all.
-Back to the future and some men come to Kate's door with an order to get blood samples from her and Aaron. Uh oh. Flash back to the island and we see Locke make his way to a hilltop where a plane almost chops his head off as it crash lands. Oh yeah, and a virgin Mary falls out as it goes by. Yep, it's Yemi's plane so this means we are pretty darn far back in time. He tries to climb up to the plane and gets shot in the leg by Ethan, who has no idea who he is. Ethan almost kills him but the flash happens again and he's back alone but now it's dark. The other people are also in the dark trying to find a man-made structure and since hillbilly Sawyer won't shaddup, Faraday tries to explain that the flashes mean they are in essence, bouncing through time randomly. It's like Quantum Leap but without the heartwarming lessons.
-Back to the future, we see Sun trying to fly to LA but she's detained by Widmore, who is pissed. She tells him she wants to kill Ben just like he does so now they are besties. Nah, but Sun is probably turning slightly bad right now.
-We now meet up with future Hurley and Sayid, who in a nutshell, break Hurley out of the nuthouse, kill some dudes who were going to kill them, Sayid takes a tranquilizer dart to the throat and Hurley has to buck up and get them to safety. Hurley, also makes the mistake of being seen holding a gun so everyone thinks he killed the dudes. They are on the run.
-Back in the past jungle, Richard finds Locke, dresses his gunshot which John DIDN'T tell him about yet and then tells him that the next time he sees him he won't recognize him because of the whole time thing so he gives him a compass. John asks what it does and Richard replies "it points North, John." OH SNAP! On a side note, I'm starting to have a little crush on Richard. He wears eyeliner and it's sexy. Richard tells him that the survivors are already home (how does he know that) and that the only way to save the island is to get them back and the only way to do that is to DIE. Ouch. We also see the other peeps and they have found the pre-exploded hatch. Sawyer's all "I'm goin' in the back door, ya'll. Dezzie will let me in" and Faraday explains that no, it won't work but Sawyer argues (of course) and bangs on the door anyway and Faraday tells him that in time travel, if something didn't happen in the past, it can't happen now. Time travel is like a street you can only go forward or backward on, no turns, meaning that whatever happened happened and you can't change the past because your efforts will never work. So, this explains quite a bit. The reason the future lives suck is because they left the island, which wasn't supposed to happen, which means it had already happened at some point, and which means that there is some monumental reason for them to stay on the island but what is that reason? WHY do they have to go back? This is important, people, VERY IMPORTANT. No turns and they made a big turn. We also notice that Charlotte is acting strange and asI recall, she mentioned coming to the island as a homecoming so my thought is that she was perhaps born there but doesn't know it or something. Thoughts? Faraday decided to buck tradition and he finds past Desmond, who we know is "special" and immune to this time stuff and he tells him to go to Oxford, which we know is what he did in "The Constant." Ahh, the pieces coming together.
Next Episode (I told you this sucker was long)
-Future Hurley is still on the run with passed out Sayid, gets pulled over by zombie Ana Lucia, who tells him not to get caught or arrested and that he needs to get himself and Sayid somewhere safe. Since he sees the dead all the time, I am still wondering if this is real or what. He goes to his house, where is parents are worried that he is on the lam and that he's out of the nuthouse. We also see the past survivors try to start fires back on the island, future Kate on the run with Aaron take a call from someone she goes to meet and Jack and Ben still in the hotel. Ben pulls a box out of the air duct and we don't know what it is. It's important, though, I guarantee that. Ben tells him he needs to take care of zombie Locke while Jack goes to get his crap since he's "never coming back." Now, I don't really believe that John is dead. I don't know why but I just don't.
-Back at future Hurley's house, his dad Cheech helps him and Sayid by eluding the fuzz and finding Jack to help Sayid. We also see Kate meet her mystery date, which turns out to be Sun and we see Ben drop off zombie Locke at the butcher shop. SOYLENT GREEN! No, but there is a woman there named Jill who knows Ben and who knows what to do with zombie Locke. I am speculating that she is like Ben and is involved in this plan to get back to the island.
-Back on the past island, the survivors are suddenly being pelted with flaming arrows on the beach, losing many in the scuffle, including Neil who was just there to die like Arnst. Sorry dude. Future Kate meets Sun who tells her that she doesn't blame her for Jin's death (sorta in an evil way) and that Kate should do whatever it takes to protect Aaron, implying that she should kill the men trying to take him. We also see Hurley spill the beans to his mom about what really happened on the island and she says she believes him but I think she thinks he's still crazy. Jack helps Sayid and then Ben visits Hurley, who freaks out and runs out to the cops who are staking out his house and gets arrested. Not good, dude.
-On past island, Sawyer and Juliet get caught by some dudes who may or may not be Dharma but they're mean either way and just as they go to cut off her hand, Locke kills him. We also see a woman doing some really hard math who goes to Ben and we see she is the old lady from before and now we know that she too, is probably from the island and trying to get back. All this means to me that this isn't really about the survivors, it's about Ben and the other people. They need the survivors to go back to reset time so they can finish whatever they are doing. In fact, I don't really know if I believe that the plane at the bottom of the ocean WAS planted, maybe it's what really happened in some reality and their fate was to die in the crash. Since you can't change what's supposed to happen, maybe they have to go back to the island to die in order for the island to keep on doing what it's doing.
AAAAAAAGGGHHH.......this has been too much. I need more coffee. Discuss amongst yourselves.
-So we begin back with the Dharma Initiative and creepy Dr.Marvin Candle, star of the illustrious Dharma station films. He seems like a real dick. We see his "normal" family, wife and kid, and know he lived on the compound during the birth of the initiative. Is he just the video dude or something more? Anyway, he gets interrupted during filming to come and check out some craziness encountered while building the Orchid station, which we now know holds the most power due to an unlimited supply of some kind of magic stuff that is within the rock. The construction dudes want to keep drilling but he says NO, stop because this shit will MESS YOU UP FOR REAL. They show a sonar of the rock wall and maybe I'm crazy, but it sure looked like the Statue of Liberty's head was in that wall. Hmm. All I know is if they find a talking ape riding a horse, I'm gonna be pissed. Anyway, the good doctor starts to leave and who does he bump into working down in the Orchid, why it's our good friend Faraday! WHA?
-Back to the future, which brings us to Unshaven Jack and Ben at the funeral home. Ben has convinced Unshaven Jack that the reason their lives have turned to crap is because they left the island, which wasn't supposed to happen. Since Unshaven's life IS a pile of crap, he agrees to gather the rest of the 6 and ride Ben's magical unicorn back to the island. Nah, but how the hell ARE they going to get back since Ben left through the mysterious light flash? Amtrak? Ben also tells Unshaven that they ALL have to go back, including zombie John Locke/Jeremy Bentham. Load him up! They go to a seedy motel, Jack shaves off his ZZ Top beard and they make their plan.
-Now it's 3 years earlier and we get to see what happened to the people left back when the island disappeared, which we know from the video in the finale, really didn't disappear, it time traveled. The light and sound happen like before and when it's over, we see Locke in the jungle alone, where he had just been with Richard and the others. And it's raining. We also see our pals on the beach, who have now realized that the flash took away their campsite and all their stuff. Sawyer is confused, as usual and he and Juliet try to figure out what's happening, including why the freighter is suddenly gone. Faraday returns on the zodiac, since there is no longer a freighter out in the water, and he tells them that the camp hasn't disappeared, it just hasn't been built yet. Oh sure, that's all.
-Back to the future and some men come to Kate's door with an order to get blood samples from her and Aaron. Uh oh. Flash back to the island and we see Locke make his way to a hilltop where a plane almost chops his head off as it crash lands. Oh yeah, and a virgin Mary falls out as it goes by. Yep, it's Yemi's plane so this means we are pretty darn far back in time. He tries to climb up to the plane and gets shot in the leg by Ethan, who has no idea who he is. Ethan almost kills him but the flash happens again and he's back alone but now it's dark. The other people are also in the dark trying to find a man-made structure and since hillbilly Sawyer won't shaddup, Faraday tries to explain that the flashes mean they are in essence, bouncing through time randomly. It's like Quantum Leap but without the heartwarming lessons.
-Back to the future, we see Sun trying to fly to LA but she's detained by Widmore, who is pissed. She tells him she wants to kill Ben just like he does so now they are besties. Nah, but Sun is probably turning slightly bad right now.
-We now meet up with future Hurley and Sayid, who in a nutshell, break Hurley out of the nuthouse, kill some dudes who were going to kill them, Sayid takes a tranquilizer dart to the throat and Hurley has to buck up and get them to safety. Hurley, also makes the mistake of being seen holding a gun so everyone thinks he killed the dudes. They are on the run.
-Back in the past jungle, Richard finds Locke, dresses his gunshot which John DIDN'T tell him about yet and then tells him that the next time he sees him he won't recognize him because of the whole time thing so he gives him a compass. John asks what it does and Richard replies "it points North, John." OH SNAP! On a side note, I'm starting to have a little crush on Richard. He wears eyeliner and it's sexy. Richard tells him that the survivors are already home (how does he know that) and that the only way to save the island is to get them back and the only way to do that is to DIE. Ouch. We also see the other peeps and they have found the pre-exploded hatch. Sawyer's all "I'm goin' in the back door, ya'll. Dezzie will let me in" and Faraday explains that no, it won't work but Sawyer argues (of course) and bangs on the door anyway and Faraday tells him that in time travel, if something didn't happen in the past, it can't happen now. Time travel is like a street you can only go forward or backward on, no turns, meaning that whatever happened happened and you can't change the past because your efforts will never work. So, this explains quite a bit. The reason the future lives suck is because they left the island, which wasn't supposed to happen, which means it had already happened at some point, and which means that there is some monumental reason for them to stay on the island but what is that reason? WHY do they have to go back? This is important, people, VERY IMPORTANT. No turns and they made a big turn. We also notice that Charlotte is acting strange and asI recall, she mentioned coming to the island as a homecoming so my thought is that she was perhaps born there but doesn't know it or something. Thoughts? Faraday decided to buck tradition and he finds past Desmond, who we know is "special" and immune to this time stuff and he tells him to go to Oxford, which we know is what he did in "The Constant." Ahh, the pieces coming together.
Next Episode (I told you this sucker was long)
-Future Hurley is still on the run with passed out Sayid, gets pulled over by zombie Ana Lucia, who tells him not to get caught or arrested and that he needs to get himself and Sayid somewhere safe. Since he sees the dead all the time, I am still wondering if this is real or what. He goes to his house, where is parents are worried that he is on the lam and that he's out of the nuthouse. We also see the past survivors try to start fires back on the island, future Kate on the run with Aaron take a call from someone she goes to meet and Jack and Ben still in the hotel. Ben pulls a box out of the air duct and we don't know what it is. It's important, though, I guarantee that. Ben tells him he needs to take care of zombie Locke while Jack goes to get his crap since he's "never coming back." Now, I don't really believe that John is dead. I don't know why but I just don't.
-Back at future Hurley's house, his dad Cheech helps him and Sayid by eluding the fuzz and finding Jack to help Sayid. We also see Kate meet her mystery date, which turns out to be Sun and we see Ben drop off zombie Locke at the butcher shop. SOYLENT GREEN! No, but there is a woman there named Jill who knows Ben and who knows what to do with zombie Locke. I am speculating that she is like Ben and is involved in this plan to get back to the island.
-Back on the past island, the survivors are suddenly being pelted with flaming arrows on the beach, losing many in the scuffle, including Neil who was just there to die like Arnst. Sorry dude. Future Kate meets Sun who tells her that she doesn't blame her for Jin's death (sorta in an evil way) and that Kate should do whatever it takes to protect Aaron, implying that she should kill the men trying to take him. We also see Hurley spill the beans to his mom about what really happened on the island and she says she believes him but I think she thinks he's still crazy. Jack helps Sayid and then Ben visits Hurley, who freaks out and runs out to the cops who are staking out his house and gets arrested. Not good, dude.
-On past island, Sawyer and Juliet get caught by some dudes who may or may not be Dharma but they're mean either way and just as they go to cut off her hand, Locke kills him. We also see a woman doing some really hard math who goes to Ben and we see she is the old lady from before and now we know that she too, is probably from the island and trying to get back. All this means to me that this isn't really about the survivors, it's about Ben and the other people. They need the survivors to go back to reset time so they can finish whatever they are doing. In fact, I don't really know if I believe that the plane at the bottom of the ocean WAS planted, maybe it's what really happened in some reality and their fate was to die in the crash. Since you can't change what's supposed to happen, maybe they have to go back to the island to die in order for the island to keep on doing what it's doing.
AAAAAAAGGGHHH.......this has been too much. I need more coffee. Discuss amongst yourselves.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
aaack!
So, Lost premiered last night. THANK YOU LORD! It's been sooooooooo long, my sweet love. As I did in previous seasons, I plan on posting recaps every week. Since last night was a double episode and my brain is still trying to unfold itself from the fetal position from the MIND BLOWING escapades, the recap will probably come tomorrow. Sorry but my jello brain can only process so much these days and there was A LOT of stuff to weed through. Just a few highlights to whet your whistle:
-Sawyer, stop being an annoying hillbilly. You have obviously seen some weird happenings on this island so stopping and asking Faraday "durh, wut's goin' on? Where's mah camp?" every 5 seconds and not heeding his warning to shut up and get to the Orchid is GETTING OLD.
-Sun, are you good or bad? I can't figure it out. You seem so nice and of course I love you more since you're Korean but DAMN GIRL, you cold.
-Hurley, you are dumb. Didn't zombie Ana Lucia's warning to NOT GET ARRESTED sink in to your cheeseburger brain? Well done on getting yourself arrested. Good move.
-Neil, sorry your only purpose was to be set on fire with an arrow. Tough break.
That's all for now. Lost, you complete me.
-Sawyer, stop being an annoying hillbilly. You have obviously seen some weird happenings on this island so stopping and asking Faraday "durh, wut's goin' on? Where's mah camp?" every 5 seconds and not heeding his warning to shut up and get to the Orchid is GETTING OLD.
-Sun, are you good or bad? I can't figure it out. You seem so nice and of course I love you more since you're Korean but DAMN GIRL, you cold.
-Hurley, you are dumb. Didn't zombie Ana Lucia's warning to NOT GET ARRESTED sink in to your cheeseburger brain? Well done on getting yourself arrested. Good move.
-Neil, sorry your only purpose was to be set on fire with an arrow. Tough break.
That's all for now. Lost, you complete me.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Turn and face the strange
Pisces, 1/21/09
The credit crunch hasn't gone away yet. There is still conflict in the Middle-East. The threat of global warming still hangs over the world. But at least now we have an American president who actually acknowledges that it is an issue. Things look as if they could be about to get a little better. Often, in life, one hopeful sign or signal is all it takes to turn a bleak prognosis into a positive prediction. In your life, too, one key factor is now significantly different. From that, all else you need can yet come.
So, I made a pretty major change in my life yesterday. Jeff and I decided that I was going to leave my full-time job. YIKES! As you can see above, I apparently am living in some kind of bizarre world where my life is told through horoscopes. Go back and read yesterday's, too. It's freaky, man. It said I was going to do something to make a fresh start or something. I'm too lazy to scroll down so I'm paraphrasing here. That's weird. Change is funny. People hate change and yet change is what makes life interesting. I get antsy when things stay the same for too long. I know that drives people BANANAS because I'm usually all over the map with stuff but that's just how I roll, people. Live it.
So where was I? Ah yes, my job. A lot of factors went into this decision and considering I had JUST started there in August after toiling away for 5 long years for my 2-year degree, you can imagine it was slightly harder than deciding what to eat for dinner. Which, let me tell ya, can be a tough one. Some days I just don't want anything we have, even though I do all the shopping so really everything SHOULD be stuff I want to eat but it's not. It drives Jeff crazy because he would eat the same dinner every night and be fine. I am difficult and complicated. He is not. Anyway, Max was having issue after issue in daycare and after watching other kids throw up on toys my kid was going to put in his mouth, I was done. In addition to that, I found that the days I was at work, by about 2:30pm, I was almost unable to keep my eyes open since Max wakes up every night at oh, about 2am and we fight to get him back down for the next hour or two or sometimes we're just up for the day so I am perpetually tired and my brain is cream of wheat. This happens EVERY NIGHT. Last night he was up and crying so hard he didn't sound human anymore. Sometimes he freaks me out because he sounds like the girl from The Exorcist when she's really pissed at the priest and makes these crazy sounds. I half expect to see him levitate and start to speak in my mother' voice.
The main reason we did this is simply because this is our only shot as parents because we're old and broke and I want to spend as much time with him as I can. I want to be able to go to the zoo and have playdates and all that shit. I'm still going to work part-time at home doing marketing and advertising stuff for them but that's pretty much it. I'm nervous about the whole thing but honestly, I think things happen for a reason so I'm going on the notion that this change will also allow me to pursue my cakes down the road so that when Max goes to school, I'll be a kick-ass cake shop owner. That's the dream, anyway. That and moving to Hawaii, which WILL HAPPEN at some point in my life. WHERE ARE YOU LOTTO WHEN I NEED YOU?
The credit crunch hasn't gone away yet. There is still conflict in the Middle-East. The threat of global warming still hangs over the world. But at least now we have an American president who actually acknowledges that it is an issue. Things look as if they could be about to get a little better. Often, in life, one hopeful sign or signal is all it takes to turn a bleak prognosis into a positive prediction. In your life, too, one key factor is now significantly different. From that, all else you need can yet come.
So, I made a pretty major change in my life yesterday. Jeff and I decided that I was going to leave my full-time job. YIKES! As you can see above, I apparently am living in some kind of bizarre world where my life is told through horoscopes. Go back and read yesterday's, too. It's freaky, man. It said I was going to do something to make a fresh start or something. I'm too lazy to scroll down so I'm paraphrasing here. That's weird. Change is funny. People hate change and yet change is what makes life interesting. I get antsy when things stay the same for too long. I know that drives people BANANAS because I'm usually all over the map with stuff but that's just how I roll, people. Live it.
So where was I? Ah yes, my job. A lot of factors went into this decision and considering I had JUST started there in August after toiling away for 5 long years for my 2-year degree, you can imagine it was slightly harder than deciding what to eat for dinner. Which, let me tell ya, can be a tough one. Some days I just don't want anything we have, even though I do all the shopping so really everything SHOULD be stuff I want to eat but it's not. It drives Jeff crazy because he would eat the same dinner every night and be fine. I am difficult and complicated. He is not. Anyway, Max was having issue after issue in daycare and after watching other kids throw up on toys my kid was going to put in his mouth, I was done. In addition to that, I found that the days I was at work, by about 2:30pm, I was almost unable to keep my eyes open since Max wakes up every night at oh, about 2am and we fight to get him back down for the next hour or two or sometimes we're just up for the day so I am perpetually tired and my brain is cream of wheat. This happens EVERY NIGHT. Last night he was up and crying so hard he didn't sound human anymore. Sometimes he freaks me out because he sounds like the girl from The Exorcist when she's really pissed at the priest and makes these crazy sounds. I half expect to see him levitate and start to speak in my mother' voice.
The main reason we did this is simply because this is our only shot as parents because we're old and broke and I want to spend as much time with him as I can. I want to be able to go to the zoo and have playdates and all that shit. I'm still going to work part-time at home doing marketing and advertising stuff for them but that's pretty much it. I'm nervous about the whole thing but honestly, I think things happen for a reason so I'm going on the notion that this change will also allow me to pursue my cakes down the road so that when Max goes to school, I'll be a kick-ass cake shop owner. That's the dream, anyway. That and moving to Hawaii, which WILL HAPPEN at some point in my life. WHERE ARE YOU LOTTO WHEN I NEED YOU?
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Yesterday was the most depressing day of the year according to scientists. What does that make today?
Pisces Tuesday, 20 January 2009
"The true test... is whether chance of birth or circumstance decides life's big winners and losers, or whether we build a community where... everyone has a chance to work hard, get ahead, and reach their dreams." Barack Obama was talking here about his vision for the USA. But you could read these words as a commentary on fate versus free will. Are we destined to accept whatever life gives us? Or can we strive to make the most of our potential? Today brings the USA a new president and it brings you a new start.
Now, I don't know if this dude sneaks into my brain while I'm sleeping or what because this is getting really ridiculous. STOP STALKING MY THOUGHTS. Today is significant for me as far as my future is concerned. Or part of my future anyway. That's all I can say for now. I've also adopted a personal mantra:
Hold your own
Know your name
Go your own way
And everything will be fine
It's song lyrics, which is totally gay but I like them and I heard them at a time when I needed to so that's that. ENOUGH OF THIS OPRAH SHIT. Get on with your day.
"The true test... is whether chance of birth or circumstance decides life's big winners and losers, or whether we build a community where... everyone has a chance to work hard, get ahead, and reach their dreams." Barack Obama was talking here about his vision for the USA. But you could read these words as a commentary on fate versus free will. Are we destined to accept whatever life gives us? Or can we strive to make the most of our potential? Today brings the USA a new president and it brings you a new start.
Now, I don't know if this dude sneaks into my brain while I'm sleeping or what because this is getting really ridiculous. STOP STALKING MY THOUGHTS. Today is significant for me as far as my future is concerned. Or part of my future anyway. That's all I can say for now. I've also adopted a personal mantra:
Hold your own
Know your name
Go your own way
And everything will be fine
It's song lyrics, which is totally gay but I like them and I heard them at a time when I needed to so that's that. ENOUGH OF THIS OPRAH SHIT. Get on with your day.
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